This is my most favourite piece of jewellery.It is made out of cement and steel and has the word HUMANITY embossed on top.
I often wax lyrical about what the ring means to me, trying my best to make some philosophical sense. It is what is it and so much more.
Humanity set in concrete.
Perfect from the onset.
Cracks and lines forming over time.
Physically- expansion and contraction.
Metaphysically- flaws and weaknesses.
No two rings are ever alike,
concrete darkening over time,
Humanity forming its character.
Everchanging, ever flawed,
but distinct
and beautiful.
Three years ago, I lost my faith in humanity, but maintained a sliver of hope, that one day, I would once again remember why it was I loved people and their flaws. I am slowly healing, remembering. This space has seen me though the tail end of a second degree and the beginning of a second major career change. I have grown since starting here, weathered, loved, lost, reclused, opened, evolved. I never quite knew what direction I wanted to take with this blog, probably a clear indication of my state of mind, transient and fleeting.
Scared as I may be, I have worked long and hard to arrive at this juncture in my life, for medical school, for the promise it holds, for one day being able to do more than be a bystander when a friend's grandfather-in-law has a heart attack, for being able to eventually learn the skills to heal, to cure and provide comfort, relief. I am moving because I no longer embody certain elements of who I interpreted as sideshowjo back in January 2007, I took control of my life and took steps to fulfill my childhood dream, I may have finally found my calling, possibly, at long last.
It is fitting that this should be my last post here at sideshowjo. I hold the changing face of humanity in my hands, no matter how flawed or dark it may be, I look upon it with fondness and hope, that one day, I can contribute to its changing facets and hopefully, artfully craft it and shape it for the better.
I wish you all well, and I thank the few of you who have come by every so often, your encouragement and words of wisdom will not be forgotten.
Thank you, and goodbye.
What a ride it has been, what a ride.
